Ever since I can remember I have been obsessed with the past and I’m just learning now how to move forward not backward.
One thing I have always done is dissect things to the point where it causes me anxiety after. When something happens to me, I think about it and replay it over in my mind for hours, days and sometimes even months. I think about what I should have done differently or how stupid I looked.
To this day, I think about past events that happened to me years and years ago and I’ve never been able to move on from them. I’ve been stuck in the past for so long.
I’ve always allowed things to affect me deeply. I feel them in the core of my heart and it takes a lot out of me. It seems to cause me a lot of pain, whether it’s good things or bad. If it’s good, I yearn to have that feeling again. If something bad has happened to me, I soak in the sadness. Either way it’s an unhealthy habit.
Lately, I haven’t been doing that so much. I’ve been allowing things to stay in the past and I’ve been thinking more positively.
When something happens to me, I allow it to happen and then I move forward. I can’t fix how it happened because it’s in the past, so why bother overthinking it and becoming anxious?
Why not move forward and focus on the future instead? Sounds pretty simple, doesn’t it?!
It’s obviously not simple (especially for someone with bad anxiety like me) but it’s a work in progress and I’ve been seeing a lot of good come out of this.
1. I’m not so obsessed with the past anymore
2. I allow things to roll off my shoulders and then I forget about them/move on
3. I’m happier
4. A smile is on my face a lot more than a frown or a concerned look
5. I’m better company when I’m around my friends
There will always be good days and bad days, but for the most part, I’ve finally come to peace with my past. I’ve accepted that it’s happened and I’m allowing myself to become free and move on from it now. It’s like I’ve finally taken the handcuffs off of me and I feel excited about the future now and not (so) scared.
Like I said, it’s not easy, but next time you’re obsessing over something that’s already happened, why not take a breath, go outside and try to just move forward. Accepting it is the hardest part. It’s a mind game with your own head, but remember, the future is so very bright!
The past is the past for a reason. Start looking ahead to the amazing future you will have and stop worrying about the past. It’s already happened!
Every day that you choose to move forward and not backwards, is a day in the right direction. You’re choosing to better yourself and that’s what life is all about.
Cheers to lifting yourself up and not bashing yourself down for things you can’t change.
Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.